The last couple days have been pretty shitty for me, what with the threatening letters from the lawyers of someone I look up to, people that I have to deal with who treat me like crap and make me want to punch them, cute little rodents getting themselves stuck in my washing machine, etc, which has really gotten me thinking about things.
I've got a few questions for those of you who consider yourself "creative types" which will hopefully either affirm or debunk a theory I've been operating under.
Would you say that you are:
a) never depressed
b) sometimes depressed
c) most times depressed
d) nearly always depressed?
I'm sure it's not much of a surprise to most of you that I fall somewhere between c and d on that scale. There's so many things that I'm passionate about yet powerless to change, so many things that work me up and piss me off, make me cry, etc, that I am nearly always completely overwhelmed by the things I feel. Add to that mix the fact that I'm extremely empathatic to the plights of others, and you've got yourself a dangerous mix. Remember when Lloyd and Harry are sobbing on the couch to that oil company commercial? That's me more frequently than I'd like to admit.
Remember the time I passed out just reading about people who were convinced by a friend to drill a hole in his skull? That is a prime example of how the feelings of others can affect me. The account was written from the point of view of one of the drillers, and he described very well what he was going through during the process. It wasn't the hole drilling that made me sick, it was the empathy of the fear and insanity that had to be coursing through the drillers at the time, after eventually being pursuaded into doing it by the drillee.
In any case, if you (or people who care about you) would say that you're creative, where would you (or people who care about you) rate yourself on the above mood status meter? The real question here is: Do you find that you're at your most creative during times of depression or times of non-depression?
Feel free to just email me so that everyone doesn't have to see how depressed you are all the time, if that thought would.. you know, depress you.
The author lives in Vancouver, Washington, USA with his girlfriend and a menagerie of cats, rats, fish, birds, guinea pigs and robots.
Among other inanities, he strives to use investigative techniques to work young starlet breasts into every aspect of rational discourse -- focusing on the discourse, thus making it not perverted. Also, has recently begun a career as "Internet hairstylist."
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